I’m not one to cower from difficult situations generally. In fact, I usually thrive on them.
So why in the hell am I scared of my externship?
It’s so incredibly weird. I’ve got some skills and I’m competent. It’s just.. dicey emotionally… and I hate the prospect of failing. There is this residual childhood need to be perfect, and it’s manifesting itself in a most disturbing way right now. Gotta work thru this somehow because I’ve frankly got no other choice but to.
It’s probably why I’m such a control freak too. Sigh. Reset the brain… reset the brain…