Today Has Been Brought To You By The Letter ‘E’…
I did something that I’m not particularly proud of last night, of which I’m not going to mention in any detail. Suffice it to say, it was something relatively intimate and it ended up rolling over into everything that happened today. Today, I got to be really straight with someone I hadn’t been for a while, which was good. It’s a pain though, being that straight.
My ‘E’ for today was ‘exceptions’. I would do “this”, but only under these circumstances… *sigh* I would do this only if THIS happens. (I know this is horribly vague, but I’m attempting not to betray anyone’s trust here.) That I was willing to settle for less than 100% ended up pissing me off on my train ride home. It’s the same shit that has shown up in my relationships time and time again. But I caught myself before I just ‘let it go’. I’m glad that I recognize when I’m going there and selling myself short… now. This ‘catching’ business should be a LOT quicker though. Really. Like instantaneous.