‘Fun’ Just Isn’t Enough Somehow…
This truly is a first for me.
I’ve been reluctant to talk about my love life on my journal, especially since my breakup back in November. But since I feel like I’m coming from a different space right about now, I’m going to fess up about some stuff.
I’ve been ready for a while to be back out in the ‘dating’ world. Given that I hadn’t been on a date in many years, it was a big transition! Part of me wasn’t over the breakup for a long while, but after LP was done, I was more than ready to jump in the middle and have some fun. The best part is that it’s all informal, ya know? No pressure about relationships per se or anything really heavy. The whole idea of dating was just to get out there and enjoy the company of another man. And I’ve been doing that… it’s been very exciting times! Anyway, I have been on a bit of a ‘campaign’ (and I use that word very loosely) about it lately. I keep saying, I’m 26 and if I want to get married in a couple of years and have kids, neither will happen on their own or through me sitting around on my ass waiting for it to happen. Only way is for me to get out there and see what’s possible. So, that’s what I’ve decided to do… take the bull by the horns and ride.
I haven’t done a whole lot of dating (only been out with a handful of guys since mid-January), but it hasn’t really worked out so far. However, the guy I’m seeing right now is really great. We’ve been having a damn good time, walking around, watching cool movies and stuff. It hasn’t been long or anything, but being in the moment works. 😀
So, hey… that’s the deal! I’m still doing all the other stuff I have on my plate, so I’m even busier than before since I’m making time for this. I rather like it… and yes, fun just isn’t enough somehow to describe how I’ve been feeling!