The Struggle With Control
The contant theme of my life, it seems! It amazes me how my struggle with control pops up in my everyday existence: at work, with my friends, with my boyfriend, with my group! What is it with me and the need to know every inch of what is going on? Honestly, it is something that I am AT LEAST aware of existing in me and that it’s not beneficial for me in any way. The kind of control I speak of is the all-encompassing kind where your whole self is caught up in it and if things don’t go the way you want them to, you not only beat yourself up about it but you get mad with everyone else because they didn’t do what you “suggested”.
I’m actually over it, but it took a few precious hours for me to get over myself and get moving again. Precious time where I could have been producing results. Well, we’ll see if that happens again. If there’s anything I can’t stand, it’s WASTING TIME.
In other news, I’m glad that Orrin and Grace have a new car! YAY! And Percell is in Texas! YAY! (BOO! ^_^ I miss him.) And I’m on Chapter 10 of my novel! DOUBLE YAY!!
And now… sleep. 😀